Holiday plan disruption
This year I haven’t had a proper holiday so I was hoping to have at least a break for my birthday at the beginning of October before the weather starts being too winterish. I was longing to have a change of scenery by flying with my partner to Brittany in northern France with his motor glider and have another flying adventure as we did three years ago. Unfortunately the weather didn’t play ball at all so I had to content myself with a weekend in the New Forest by car. It wasn’t the same thing that I wanted, was it? It didn’t have the same appeal either, as nice as the New Forest can be ….
Why am I telling you this? You might wonder … I am quite a private person to be honest, therefore to talk about myself openly with all of you doesn’t come always easy, just the opposite! I push myself to do it though because I know that I am not different to anybody else and so by sharing my little bits that I don’t like or I am uncomfortable with, I hope you might recognise aspects of yourself and, by doing that, you might expand your consciousness a bit more and …
Even just one little millimetre is good, good enough to move you further and expand to have more freedom in your life. Yes, to expand one’s own consciousness means to be freer and feel freer which is why I do what I do, I love pushing myself so that I can push other women to reach for more in their lives.
Self-inflicted prison
As I was telling you, I was expecting to have a super exciting and romantic holiday with my partner before the Autumn would set in, but I didn’t get it. The consequence of that was that without realising I fell into the trap of living in my head rather than being in the present and in my body. A very easy and alluring trap to fall into that can take you to start feeling despondent towards everything you have in your life, if you don’t catch yourself in time and this game goes on for too long. Let’s say that in my case this faulty software ran in my hardware for a long while (few weeks maybe?) and so my body started feeling uncomfortable and despondent. Have you ever been there? I go there now and then and reasoning with myself doesn’t bring many results either, I just keep going towards destination unhappiness and restlessness. When I realised that I wasn’t in the right space and that I hadn’t been for a while, I sat down with myself for a moment of silence and I just sat and sat … I felt sorry for myself for having fallen in a very well known trap once again and I started feeling the desire to feel free and in the open air, outside the prison I had built for myself. I said to myself: “Gabriella, life is a holiday! Why are you wasting it by being unhappy? What are you doing?”
Desperation hill
I looked outside my kitchen window and really saw the beautiful trees that were starting to change colour and put on their autumnal look, the frenetic activity of squirrels that were stocking up their loot everywhere for later and realised how blessed I was. I started letting go and getting myself off the hook of “I need desperately a holiday!!” which meant really this: I am desperate, period! When one is rolling down ‘desperation hill’ and eventually stops because one encounters a bigger stone or an uphill slope, it’s wonderful as the chance of a reset moment becomes possible and everything changes. For me that moment was when I stopped and looked outside my kitchen window and saw the autumnal beauty, I am a libran and beauty has a strong effect on me, it has the power to make me pause and look/think/ponder and that is fantastic! I am sure that I am not the only one going down ‘desperation hill’ now and then and knowing what can stop that is very useful, actually extremely useful, I have to say. The result of letting things be and allowing my partner to surprise me for my birthday with whatever he might think suitable and be open to accept anything that might come my way was once again opening me to the unexpected and the magic of life. I started feeling like a kid again and that was wonderful because I could feel my heart opening up, my third chakra expanding and softening and I felt powerful instead of desperate, alleluia!
The magic surprise
My partner did surprise me with a different experience this year, something that I haven’t done so far: indoor skydiving. Even if I have done some crazy stuff in my life like walking on fire, jumping off a bridge tied up to a rope, breaking arrows pointed to my throat or bending steel rods with my throat, every time I do something different and a bit challenging the same feelings of uncertainty, vulnerability, fear, doubt, etc. come up so when I went to the place for indoor skydiving I was feeling nervous, especially because I wasn’t told until I arrived at the destination. This didn’t seem as challenging as the previous things but still … I love these types of experiences because they oblige me to be totally in the present, thing that I hadn’t done for some time as I had been living in my head and had ‘mental masturbation’ about a holiday for few weeks. I so loved being there and just focus on what the instructor was telling me to do and nothing else, what a liberation! I felt really stupid floating in space not having any control of my body or very minimal, therefore I was concentrating so hard that the time of one minute exhausted me very quickly. In total I had three sessions of one minute each. I loved this experience because such a situation was for me a shortcut to get access to my unconscious mind and observe myself in a different environment with the possibility of exploring my own unknown skills and traits. If you think about it, we tend to do the same things in our everyday life over and over again so it is super good to put oneself ‘on trial’ so to speak and see what happens with a different test … The test for me was super exciting and successful: I loved it! It also showed me that now I have collected all the preliminary experiences for real skydiving, if one day I feel inclined to do the craziest thing in the world: jump out of an aeroplane that is perfectly flying without a problem! Madness, right? I have already experienced the force of gravity when I jumped off a bridge, then I experienced how it feels to hang from a parachute when I did parasailing and now how it feels floating in the air and being able to move in space and its effects. Next stop: skydiving? We will see, maybe in five years’ time it might entice me more, who knows?
Let peace rescue you
Autumn is a colourful season that reminds us of abundance and celebration. Are you counting your blessings or are you doing what I have been doing: living in your head? Sometimes it is even difficult to realise that we are doing it! In case you do, just bring yourself gently home by inviting yourself to really see what is happening outside of your inner world and take inspiration by just being in silence and accept the warm embrace of nature. You can choose peace of mind, body and spirit and then just allow it to come to you and pervade you totally without you having to do anything, just by deciding what you want: peace instead of restlessness. If you would like to find out more about my work with women and the female cycle you can check Flying Inspiration.
If you would like help in making your cycle your best friend and discovering the delights of your ‘inner Autumn’, feel free to contact me and ask your questions. Thanks for reading and may you find peace and calm this Autumn by developing your presence. Love and hugs from ‘The Flying Witch’
